22 year old guy dating 27 year old

22 year old guy dating 27 year old - Am 31 and this young man that i have fell in love with is 20 he was only 19 when i met him a year ago this month i sid com we on to him cause i thought he was 22 or close to 25 but he wasnt i also slept with him on our first date i had been through alot prior to meeting him and just wanted to have fun n bring something back into my life because i have always been a person to have fun and just that and really was always scared to be in love it has been pure lust but i cant get him off my mind in my heart i love him he knows how i feel some what but not fully he has fell back frm me 3 times within the year the first time it took 3 months we was not to talking than the second time we were really getting close than his ex had a baby he ayep up vause could have been his but it wasnt n he fell back right before he find out it wasnt his that was the third time n we didnt talk for a couple months now we baxk talking he explained to me that every time im rude which i have been because of my past and just the scorpio that i am and i fell to mention when we dis sleep together the first time i flipped out cause it was so good and set rules but th we more we would sleep together i would gradually break the rules i don't know but that im having a hard te to walk away cauae i love him so much i mwan i know i do cause its in my heart not just lust but in love. Try to push myself to forget him,sometime he look at me i seems can feel sometime,he walk very close to me and i just can look at his eyes over 2 sec,i was really shy(like some 16 girls <–i wish),and because his mum and dad are my friend,last time i went to his home,he said if i live here that would be fun,when he talk to me he look at me with his eyes and got something inside on his eyes, i think i might just over thinking, i really really like him…please just tell me stop doing that,but i also want to know if he likes me or not,i won't tell him what iam thinking of cause,i just want to know,and these days i just dont want to eat,we went to the park last week(whole family) and got a new girl came to join(which only 20 years old really pretty one) his father as me to ask his son to go walk with that girl(by that time i really want to cry)so i just go ask,i ask him,do you like her,he smile with me and said no,and then he said i know what you try to do,and this is what my dad ask you to do,i said do you want to go walk with her? To know and made friends with a man of 40+ and yes i’ve fell for him big style we were chatting and he kept saying i love you then he would say the nickname he calls me i fell for this i’ve never said how he feels only that i’m a good friend he’s going through some family issues and is separated from his wife she is manipulative and he’s been hurt very hurt he has a child by her and one to another previous partner who was a drug addict this child he brought up by himself it breaks my heart to see him suffering and loving him like i do i long to hold him close we talked today and he said he’s not going to have a relationship for a while due to the problems but deep inside i would love a relationship with him we are both softhearted and gentle pple in my life i’ve yearned for someone who could be loving gentle and tender but i only had users who were violent who treated me like dirt. So im 35 female and have a 19 year old that iv known for years finally come out and tell me about how he sees me …i have a child a year younger than him and it was well not rwally shocked fir a year i knew he had a lil crush in me and i didnt pay it much attention then on a then oneday things changed …i never looked at this guy like that but once things happend it was never the same he wouldnt leave me alone …it was constant so needy i couldnt breath i tried to end the strange relasionship im still confused as to what it was …the intimacy was out of this would no joke , but i needed to get away it was becoming to much i ended it and moved 30 miles away its been hard its been two monthes and i miss him i talk to him but hes offish and is basically treating me the way i treated him at time…he acts like he dosnt care but its all a lie ….